So here I am once again.
Not only have I not played at all since SFPT September, I don't even have the motivation to do so. What's worse, I am a full issue and a half behind on "Bluff". That might be somewhat excusable given I have been reading a lot of books lately, but this next item is what really surprises me:
EPT London is going on right now. I knew this ahead of time, but when the opportunity came to take a look and watch some live coverage, I declined, in favor of continuing to listen to XM Radio while I worked. Even a couple months ago this would have been something I jumped at, racing home from the Rec and logging in right before even checking email.
Now? Not interested, and I don't know why.
I think part of it is that I have been away from poker for so long. Reading and watching are fine, but I have been distracted with so many other things lately, I haven't been willing to focus on poker (to be fair, the distractions have not all been bad things; in fact, few of them are, so maybe "distraction" isn't the right word. Perhaps "occupied" is a better classification.) However, the November Nine is coming up soon, so I'm betting that will rekindle my interest at least a little bit.
Another part of the problem is one I have discussed many times already: I feel like I have plateaued. The only way to get away from that is to play, and I haven't had that opportunity at all. I'm not whining - if i wanted to make it happen, I could. But there are other more important things in my life. As much as I love poker, I'm not about to jet off and leave my wife and daughter behind so I can play. How much of an ass would that make me?
Answer: a big one. The biggest. And I'm not doing it. There is a solution I will find, a balance I can strike. Stay tuned.
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